31/12/2013 @ 8.32 am

I don't even wake up late anymore.  It's 7.50 am today, 7.11 am yesterday, 6.50 am the day before...

Marriage is a labour of love, it's not meant to be hunky dory all the time, without requiring effort or consciousness - I was a fool to believe it could be.  Even in this, she knew better than me.  I got too comfortable in our relationship and I didn't love her in a way that she would feel safe and validated. 

Porn and gaming, I can live without; she, I cannot.  But I cannot fix her.  She doesn't feel "in love".  Can I change that?  Fuck yeah.  5 Languages of Love.  I, not anyone else, can speak her language better and make her feel loved.  It's ultimately her choice...

In any case, I am all changed forever.